Andrews Response

Last night I showed Andrew a slightly doctored version of my previous blog post because we were arguing and he wanted me to tell him how I felt. It started off with us talking about everything and somehow imagining other people while we were having sex came up in our conversation. He said that he has never done it, but he doesn't think that it is a bad thing. Which blew my mind. Everyday I find out something else about him that just breaks my heart. It is completely unacceptable to be picturing having sex with other people while in an intimate moment like that. He asked if I have ever done it, and after thinking about it, no, I have never imagined anyone else naked or anything like that while have sex with anybody. Our views about everything are just so different, I really don't think that we are compatible. After he read the blog we didn't really discuss it much, all he said was "if you cant even stand me, then why do you tell me you love me? or are you lying every time you say it?" I told him I'm not lying when I say it, which is true. I really would love this relationship to work, but I don't want him to have to change in order for it to happen. And later on last night he totally threw it in my face about not wanting t fuck, but wanting to make love. Just randomly out of the blue he made fun of me about it. That blog was something that was not written for the intention of him reading it, therefore it was completely from my heart and I was extremely vulnerable and he ripped me apart by saying that. I don't know how to handle this, I don't know what the right thing to do is. We have only been together such a short time, I don't want to end it so soon, not knowing if what we have could be real, but its so hard because of how bad it is already going, this early in the relationship. I just don't know what to do...